friends dont need to explain nothin

update

2006-02-23T18:21:48Z

i really wish i was good at updating this... bunch of stupid stuff has been going on. not going to write about it cuz im hoping ill forget about it one day. right now im just watching Judging Amy then Boy meets world then i have class 3:10-4:40. thursdays are the best day. theres no doubt. i have my basketball game at 6:15pm. then the boys basketball game at 8:15pm then i have to write a 3 page paper about a 20th century president's speech. pretty lame. i had a dream that it was 88 degrees last night. yesterday was kim n colleens birthday. ill be 19 in 3days. i need to get an ipod. and i need to get my car fixed becuase it was broken into over 3months ago. umm wat else...our first lacrosse game is march 5th in west lafayette, indiana. .. i withdraw'ed from philosophy. im hoping to get a B in english and math and im hoping to pass psychology. which means i need a C. i duno.. mm i suppose thats all for now. ill try to do this more often

New one.

2005-12-11T14:43:17Z

So i figured id update this. mainly for me. not for anyone else. ...
um. so its 8:27 am. and i havent gone to sleep yet. i dont know why. sometimes im tired and i try to sleep and i cnat and other times im just not tired. its weird. last night i went tobed at like 5am slept till 9 am and then fell back aslsep till around 12:30 and the night before that... which was thursday night into friday morning. i had to go tbed at 1am becuase i had to be up at 7;15am ... and for some reason that night i actaully felt good when i woke up i felt refreshed like i actually had a good sleep. but um. besides that... for the past 3 weeks i havent slept. atleast not good. every oncein a while ill sleep around 8 hours or ill sleep for 4 hours and take a 2-3 hour nap. but i duno i feel just tired.

umm i want things to go back to normal. thats step one. i think the worst thing in the world to me. is to know that someone cant trust you. like i hate that feeling. more than anyhting. i dont know. i also realized i hate smoking. and im 100% positive i could never date a guy or marry a guy that smokes. even if that means im not gunna go out with anyone for the rest of my life. maybe im jsut typing this becuase my head hurts and ive been thinking alot latel ybecuase of my lack of sleep. oh and becuase of my weird sleeping patterns. i usually eat dinner. and thats it. so i will eat dinner around 4pm or 5pm then be starving by 3 am or 4 am. so im never hungry anymore either. maybe i have some ulcers growing in my stomach or something

i dont know im just typing becuase im sick of everything i suppose. now im really hungry. even though yesterday i ate a sandwhich aroudn 2pm nad then el gallo around 8pm so um the bears game is on at 12. hopefully they win. i think they might. especially since the steelers are on a 3 game losing streak and we're on an 8 game winning streak. illinois basketball is 10-0. thats pretty sweet. oh and i want to see that The Producers cuz it has the guy that plays ferris buller in it. and it has will farrell in it

clearly i have severe add. bu ti think im gunna go find something to eat then try to nap before the bears game.

maybe ill start writing in this again

in other words...

2005-10-30T02:13:47Z

So basically to sum up the past few days.. the white sox are the 2005 world series champions. but i am not surprised. im extremely happy. me, jz, and her friend jenny were all at the united center watching the 4th game.. did i mention it was a sweep? oh cuz it was. so amazing. ... then we hung out on 95th n central cheering at cars with liek 30 other kids.

and lately... ive been really bored n stuff. last night we played baseball then i went to Eleanors Fault/ Thee Ability show. but i left before Thee ability playd..although i heard they sounded amazing. so congrats to them on their first show. and then from like 11:15-1:15 me and jz drove around.. it was actaulyl a really fun night. we drove threw forest preserves, to countryside. aka lagrange and joliet rd lol um. i took a left on ridgeland for no reason. there was a plane that was lost in the sky. i have rocks in my truck and under my tires and we had caps not cobs driving behind us.. it was an eventful night for sure.

and i didnt have gel today and i didnt have money to buy any so i used ashleys straightner. and my hair is semi-striaght. i ahvent done this inlike psh. um atleast a year. and jenny usualyl does it for me. lol and me and corey went and visited lindsay at work so now im sitting here doing nothing.. waiting for something intersting ot happen.

i'll let you know how that goes.

Oh how times change..

2005-10-24T04:53:35Z

So the sox are definitley tearing it up... bases are loaded. konerko comes up to bat.. jackie and lea are my witness's that i predicted a grand slam.. and then it happened and the sox take the lead 6-4. then the astros come back in the top of the 9th and tie it up... bottom of the 9th Scott Podsednik comes up to bat homerunn baby.! sox win game 2 of the world series.

when the sox win the world series we're going to midway!!
hahahay yess!

So my sociology test is this piece of paper with 4questions on it and im supposed to answer 2 of the 4 and its due tomorrow and i lost the paper. And then the other part of the test i have to pick 1 out of 3 articles and write about one. but i dont understand what im supposed to bew riting so i'll ask my professor tomorrow

did i mention im going to depaul university. but i think im transfereing to SXU at the beginning of next year becuase DePaul doesnt have Criminal Justice as a major and commuteing is really boring.

...just so everyone knows i do have a crush and i am really happy because i have some of the most amazing friends.

jz and lea die their hair pink when i predict grand slams.
haha

So you missed me?

2005-10-21T17:50:09Z

:) i know you missed me but im bacK! this time for good iswear! im not even going to update you from whats been going on.. atleast not right now.

i have class at 2:20pm. i gotta leave here by 1:15. kristies comin with:). no

COME ON COME NO JUST GET THIS RIGHT LETS JUST GET DRUNK AND WATCH STARS NIGHT

i'll update later. just wanted to let you konw im back biatches:)

... im addicted to surveys

2005-07-16T00:09:28Z

& What's the weather like? warrrrrmmmm
& What did you do? drove home w/ lauren ash and turek from laurens cottage in michigan and saw ahuge crop field on fire
& Have you eaten breakfast yet? yes
& What did you eat? belgium waffles
& What do you see when you like out the window or door or peephole? my pool
& Have you exercised? no
& What do you plan to do for the rest of the day or tomorrow? today- hang out w/ laura and get warped tickets tomroow- go to country thunder/ write essay/ hang out w/ katie from ohio
& When did you wake up? 6am, 9am, 11:30am .. couldnt sleep much
& Have you eaten lunch yet? yes
& What did you eat? wendys
& Have you gone out to eat and where? yes, billy boys w/ jill for linner/dunch.
& Did you buy anything? food
& Has something changed drastically today? i thinki finally got a job?
& Are you happy? ..to tell the truth no im not
& Did you sing aloud today? yeah
& Did you talk to a friend on the phone? yeah
& On AIM? yea
& In person? yeah
& Did you get mail? no
& What was it (junk, bills, personal letters)? ...
& How many times have you gone to the bathroom so far? 3
& Have you taken a nap? no i wish
& How long have you been on the computer? 20minutes earlier and 5minutes now
& What are you listening to at the moment? nothin
& What is one thing that happened today that you will never forget? not today but it was yesterday.... lauren and turek were on the jet ski and i was tubing and they tore my ass up finalyl i fell off and tried to get on the jet ski to jump on the tube.. didnt work we tipped the whole jetski and both of htem fell off THEN we allt ried to get back on the jet ski.. still didnt work and we tipped it agian finally after what seemed liek forever we got on and iwas on the tube and i told lauren to go straight back to the pier.. NOPE her and turek wanted tohave fun. so i flew off and i did 4 rolls on top of the water and rolled one more time under the water. bad bruises from that.. but turek and lauren almost pee'd their pants. it was good times
& Is anyone in the room with you? no
& How many people are on your buddy list, if you're on it? 41
& Are you feeling lazy? yea
& Are you feeling bored? no
& What have you accomplished today? i read alot of harry potter and hung out with jill
& Was there any questions that were repeated? no

---------------------------------
1. What is your middle name?
patricia

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
dark pink w/ light pink circles

3. What are you listening to right now?
nothing

4. What are the last 2 digits in ur phone number?
32

5. What was the last thing you ate?
billy boys

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
a cool shade of green

7. How is the weather right now?
really warm

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
laura

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
hair and face

10. Favorite type of Food?
ribs

11. Do you drink?
sometimes

12. Do you smoke?
no

13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did?
just one night was completely blanked out

14. Hair color?
brown w / blonde highlights

15. Eye Color?
1 brown and 1 blue... naturally brown.. i lost my last my blue contacts and had to use a clear one

16. Do you wear contacts?
yes

17. Single?
yes

18. Favorite Month?
hmm... june

20. Last Movie you Watched?
willy wonka and the chocolate factory w/ kristie

21. Last kiss?
i dont know

22. Are you too shy to ask somene out?
yeah

24. Hugs or Kisses?
both

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate

26. Favorite place?
anywhere with my friends

28. What do you want to be when you grow up?
a lawyer/ maybe a psychologist... or a psychology teacher.. somethin in those fields

29. What books are you reading?
harry potter and the half blood prince

30. Piercings?
belly button, lip, 2 on left cartilage and just one on each ear lobe

31. Fav. Movie?
vanilla sky or the sandlot

32. Fav. baseball Team?
the white sox. thats a given

33. Fav. American Idol?
no one?

34. Any pets?
a cat- socko

35. AIM SN?
' rockit rock star '

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
butter popcorn

37. Dogs or cats?
dogs

38. Favorite Flower?
daises

39. What do you do when you wake up in the A.M.?
get very mad that im up that early

40. Do you still talk to your best friends from intermediate school?
not all of them but the ones i dont talk to i definitley miss

41. What's on your desk?
a lighter, a towel, a scanner, a monitor, a cable/dsl box, a candle, speakers, pencil sharperner, tap dispenser, lamp, phone and many computer games

42. Rock Concert or symphony?
i go to shows or concerts which ever

43. Play or Opera?
play

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
not a real one

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
they're not bad

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
righty

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2 or sometimes 3... always atleast one under my head and one between my legs

49. Are you missing someone?
yea

50. Did you like this survey?
it kept me occupied

[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.- sometimes
[x] open up to others easily. - unfortunetly
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job - i think so
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS...
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars
[ ] I've been out of this country many a time
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games when i'm bored
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a myspace relationship
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries
[x] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken bones - only fingers
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[x] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired - i quit before they get to fire me
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[ ] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardi gras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe - does france count?
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten Sushi.
[x] been snowboarding not on a real mountain
[x] Been Skiing water ski'ing
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[x] Been moshing at a rock show.
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ]Gone to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[x]Were SO bored you took this survey

(x)Slept all night in a bed with a person of the opposite sex
( )Correctly Painted a paint by number. ... What?
(x)Slept for more than 12 hours
( )missed a week of school or more
(x)Put chapstick on more than 5 times in an hour
(x)kissed more than one person in a day
( )created a LiveJournal survey
( )eaten a worm
(x)jumped on a trampoline
( )ridden a unicycle
(x)Done something special for someone else
(x)Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
( )Paid more than $50 for food at a fast food restaurant
( )got caught for cheating
(x)Brushed your teeth while on the phone
(x)written a poem
(x)Randomly called people out of a phone book 7th and 8th grade- amazing
( )Been on a yacht
( )Put bananas in your cheerios
( )Lied to a friend to make them feel better
( )Dated someone more than 4 years older than you
(x)Eaten frosting out of the original container
( )Had a dream about a LiveJournal friend
(x)Fallen in public
(x)Had your pants rip
(x)recently had a PB&J sandwich
( )Killed an animal.
( )Been prescribed to 3 or more medications by a doctor.
( )Wished you were an only child
( )Used your friends razor with out them knowing
(x)Been unproud of a decision you made
(x)Been friends with an ex's mom after the relationship ended.
(x)Worked for a family member
( )Been told you were too young
(x)Made out in a car
(x)Kissed a friend
(x)Been to a High School Dance
(x)Been to a concert
(x)Gotten away with a lie to your parents
( )Been dumped the night of a dance and left with out a date
( )Gone out with a person one of your parents set you up with
(x)Hate to admit you are wrong
(x)Ridden on a shopping cart
( )Break Danced in a mini mart
( )Went into a mini mart in socks
( )Worn a tiara
(x)Been in a play - kindergarden
( )Gone to church more than 4 times in a week
( )Copied more than 30 CD's in a day
( )Made a movie
( )Dressed gothic
(x)Worn 5 or more layers of clothing
( )Had a stalker
( )Been to california
( )Lived on a house boat
( )Swam in clear blue water
(x)Sat in a doctors office with a friend
(x)Ran across traffic
(x)Hit on a waiter or waitress
(x)Taken pictures with a stranger
( )Been to Busch Gardens
(x)Stayed in a hotel room with friends
(x)Made a public speech
(x)Been on cable television
( )put straws up your nose
( )Choreographed a dance
(x)Felt used
(x)Made a smoothie or milkshake
(x)had fun at work
( )Watched Desperate Housewives
(x)Watched a movie so often you could quote every word
(x)listened to an old NSYNC or Backstreet Boys CD more than once in a day AFTER they were popular
(x)Kept something from a past relationship
(x)given someone else flowers
(x)Taken a foreign language france

hi.

2005-07-16T00:04:55Z

im ive been really down in the dumps lately. i just quit my job. im so screwed its not anyones fault but mine. after all thast been goin on i barely trust anyone anymore.

i wish i had that set group of friends like i used to have. um my best friend's heart hurts. and i cant fix it. but iwant to so bad. sometimes i get scared that i'll lose her and right now i really dont htink i could afford that becuase ive been best friends wit her for 7 years and thas the longest ive had a best friend for. that girl.. means the world to me. right now this quote fits me best...

There are always times in my life when I need a friend. But now is one of those certain times when I need a friend who needs me.

i wish i knew i was needed. i think id feel better.
i complain to a few people. but no one really knows how much im falling apart inside.... i hate when i get like this.. its happned so many times bfore. and no one wants to deal with me so im trying to hide it. im doing the best i can. its just getting really hard.

i guess im done for now. if anyone out ther reads this im sorry i havent updated..

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-06-30T09:29:00

2005-06-30T15:05:04Z

alright. im here dont fret.

ive been off work this whole week cuz donna was mad at me i work tomorrow 5pm-11pm and saturday 11am- 5pm. and today = The Academy is!!!! w/ plain white t's, june, days away, and the audition its going to be amazing.

we're leaving here at noon. going to get a really early start lol. im out.

i hate compulsive liars.

i trust the wrong people

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-06-25T14:25:00

2005-06-25T19:36:58Z

minerals scrubbed against your skin will wear you down
as well as lies scrubbed against your brain will wear you out

im not sure if i mentioned this already or not... but i really really really regret not going to Bradley.. why would i chose a job over a college?... and they screwed me over so im not getting the job even though they said i had it sometimes... i disapoint myself... alot

white sox pride forever

2005-06-25T17:19:17Z

SO yeahhh. yesterday i had work at 7am.. and i got there at like 7:20 of course cuz im always late. and then i go on break around 9:30 and my manager comes in the break room and goes " do you want to go home" im like yeah shes goes bye i was like waiit did i do soemthing shes like no we just have too many people so i got hugs from all the managers cuz i loved them alot yesterday.

then went to surprise visit jz for a while n stuff like that then came home hung out and played baseball at 2:05 and we won 19-10 it was sweet.

then did whatever adn later last nite we went to crestwood fest which was fun and then on the way to ih op jackie dared laura to run around outside when we were parked at a stop light.

so i did it cuz i knew laura wouldnt. and i ran to rickys van cuz he was two cars behind us and erika was right behind us. it was fun and i was waving to alot of people i was basically WIRED all day and im not sure why.. but i was just acting like a goofball and i miss myself acting like that.

and then after ihop i got a lil sick just from being in the sun so much and everything. but we went to play bags int he jewel parking lot and my head still hurt but iw asnt dizzy anymore. and today i woke up at 7am to my 2 aunts and my mom cleaning and vaccuming i was a little pissed abotu that but i fell back asleep till 11 ish and now jz and laura havee work at 1pm/ so i'll either be reading, watching tv, swimming, or possibly trying to get a baseball game goin.

and around 5:30 im goin to rickys party.

im still getting used to the feeling of not having a set group of friends anymore.. its sitll weird.

college soon. i have to take my placement tests still. Fuck.

ending such a good note.

ilove kristiekahr and erin gallagher a real lot

Beaches.

2005-06-23T23:52:56Z

SO today last night i ahd a really really bad dream about two tornados hitting oak lawn, and like this girl died in my back yard and me jz and laura were waiting to go to the beach and then it just tornadoed and then me and my mom went out side to clean up stuff and like there was 3 feet of snow on the gorund.. weird?. and my dad asked me if iwas on the pill. and i was with manning, jesse hildago, meghan dorian and katie luckett and a bunch of people and liek we were trying on our graduation gowns? and then i was crossing my street and these two hot guys were like hitting me with this stick thing and im like hey wat color am i and they are like yeah ur right and stopped hitting me.. i dont evne get that? ummm. thats all i relally remember right now. it was really scary though.

so i woke up at 7:30 and my aunt was sitting on the couch ... shes in from arizona and i just sat up and shes like somethign wrong? i was like oh i just had a dream and ic ouldnt fall back alseep so i went ot the bank,walgreens and the gas station then packe dup the cooler . and me jz and laura went to my moms restaurant downtown and ate some free damn good breakfast and then went to the dunes got burnt as a mother and i dont know wat else im doing tonite.. but today was amazing as usual. and tomorow i work 7am-3pm and then going to the crestwood fest. holla.

saturday=- rickys graduation party, sunday= laura nad jz's graduation party monday= lea's drum thing.. or i might pick up some hours at work. and tuesday= i dont know wednesday= tryin to find some hours at work thursday= FREE ACADEMY IS/ JUNE show hollaaaa. friday= work 5pm-11pm saturday= 11am-5pm work and sunday = my party?... lol im not sure and its a week away i really better figure that out.. cornrows and laptops are soon to come my way.

<3leave comments:)

u wont read this. but i did it anyway

2005-06-20T07:52:45Z

Are you...
( ) in love
(x) wearing pants
(x) wearing a shirt
(x) wearing a bra
( ) wearing a thong
( ) wearing boxers
(x ) single
( ) taken
(x ) weird
(x) awesome
( ) prep
( ) goth
( ) punk
(x ) dork
( ) emo
( ) old fashioned
(x) paranoid
( ) fat
( x) pretty
( ) skinny
(x) average
( x) pessimistic
() quiet
(x ) loud
( x) goofy
( ) serious
( x) tired
( ) horny
( ) black
(x) white
( ) an orphan
( ) adopted
( ) married
( ) laid back
(x ) crazy

do you...
( ) like to cry
( x) eat raman noodles
( ) love school
(x ) love dorks
( x) love your LJ
( x) kick ass
( ) like shirley temples
( ) worship someone
( ) have a girlfriend
( ) have a boyfriend
( ) love your girlfriend/boyfriend
( ) tell your girlfriend/boyfriend you love them
( ) own a thong
( x) sing in the shower
( ) hate bush
( ) hate kerry
( ) hate america
( ) hate where you live
( ) love bush
( ) love kerry
( ) love america
(x ) not care about politics

have you ever...
(x) started a fire
(x) told someone you loved them
(x) told someone you hated them
(x) been in a taxi
( ) been to NYC
(x) been on a train
(x) been on an airplane
(x ) left the country
( ) lied to someone you love
(x) wanted to die
(x) felt everything was perfect
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) regretted kissing someone
(x) been in love
(x) talked back
( x) taken a dance class
(x) went somewhere via subway
( ) went somewhere via horse
(x) went somewhere via monorail
( ) went somewhere via scooter
( x) snuck out
( ) gotten caught sneaking out
( ) been walked in on
( x) hated someone
(x ) been in a fist fight
( x) broken a bone
( x) got surgery
( x) been made fun of
( x) kicked someones ass
( x) literally kicked someones ass
( x) wished you were someone else
(x) cried because you were happy
( ) made a layout
( ) failed a class
( x) tripped and fell on your face
(x) tripped and fell on your ass
(x) lost something important
(x) lost someone important
(x) seen something you shouldn't have

who is...
your favorite person? jackie, and kristie
your favorite band?? taking back sunday, the higher, hidden in plain view, october fall
your idol? jz.
the last person you saw? turek
the last person you kissed?
the last person you hugged? lauren
the last person you called? monica
the last person you held hands with?
standing behind you? no one
the best person ever? theres abotu 3. they knwo who they are
your boyfriend/girlfriend? no
the last person who annoyed you?
the one person you can tell anything? kristie and jackie
the sexiest person alive?
the person you're most afraid of? Nobody
the person who's seen you naked the most?
someone you would seriously have killed if you could? no one
someone who you wouldn't mind living with? turek or jill
someone you'd want to be buried beside? my dad
someone you'd want to marry?

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01. I have a cell phone.
02. I am obsessed with having my shoes match my outfit.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a boy.
05. I love wearing dangly earrings.
06. I am a gemini.
07. I love someone more than they will ever know.
08. I'm obsessed with dogs.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in a different state in the U.S. before.
12. I get an allowance.
13. I want to be in high school forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz in person.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love to read.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to the Disney Channel.
20. I am a girl.
21. I'm a worried person.
22. I'm in high school.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I don't like girls who are fake.
25. I like to swim.
26. My dreams are sometimes weird.
27. One of my best friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen Fight Club at least 45 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I've never fallen asleep during school.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. It bugs me sometimes when people are really late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love autumn.
36. I have too many clothes.
37. I like to sleep in.
38. I've failed a class in high school.
39. I'm afraid of spiders.
40. I have nail polish on my fingernails or toe nails right now.
41. I've watched the O.C.
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I like the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future
47. I have family out of state.
48. I can't wait till my birthday.
49. I love the show Rich Girls
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure all the time.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I'm taking german class.
55. I have a laptop.
56. I love girls that love music.
57. I state the obvious sometimes just to reassure myself.
59. I dance randomly sometimes. .. [[when nobody's watching..]]
60. I'm a good singer.
61. I sometimes like cleaning my room.
62. I never get jealous.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love doing math.
65. I cry when I see homeless people.
66. I like hugs.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.
69. I am too forgiving sometimes.
70. I have my own vehicle.
71. I love high school.
72. I have a lot of under garments.
73. I'm a daddy's girl.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color pink more than the rest.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have blue eyes.
78. I like being a passenger in vehicles at nighttime.
79. I play soccer on a team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I've never lied.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is cute.
84. I love the smell of the rain.
85. I am right handed.
86. I hate getting shots.
87. I'm a perfectionist.
88. I've gone mooning.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I love camping.
91. I like going on rides
92. I can be quite shy.
94. There's something I will never forget, either because I can't or because I just don't want to.
95. I love looking at pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I do well in school.
98. I get a lot of mail.
99. I like hot tubs.
100. I like to be alone sometimes.

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___Your Appearance___
11. Hair Color: brown
12. Hair Long or Short: Long
13. Eye Color: 1 brown 1 blue ( blue= contact)
14. How do ur nails look: short
15. Height: 5'2
16. Do you have a crush on someone right NOW (truthfully): Yeah
17. Do you like yourself: sometimes
18. Braces?: No
19. Think you're hot?: no
20. Piercings: Ears, Cartlidge, belly button, lip ring
21. Tattoos: no
22. Righty or Lefty: righty

___Your 'Firsts'___
23. First Kiss: anthony
24. First B.F/ G.F: justin
25. First best friend(s): jackie p. and then jackie z. then some more. but jz. is still here even after everything.
26. First Award: Swim team
27. First Sport You Joined: Softball
28. First pet: bird named barbie
29. First vacation: orlando florida
30. First Concert: backstreet boys
31. First "Real" Love: ruben

___ Favorites___
32. Movie: spiderman, fight club. vanilla sky, butterfly effect
33. TV Show: boy meets world, one tree hill
34. Color: green blue black
35. Band: taking back sunday, the higher, the academy is
36. Song: the phrase that pays- the academy is
37. Food: ribs, and pizza
38. Drink: dr. pepper
39. Candy: reeses cups
40. Sport To Play: softball/baseball, hockey, football
41. Sport To Watch: baseball, soccer
42. Brand Of Clothing: volcom, hurley
43. Stores: Pac Sun, Zumiez
44. School Subject: english, chemistry
45. Animal: dogs, cats , lizards and turtles
46. Books: harry potter, chicken soup, stargirl, someone like you, the five people you meet in heaven
47. Magazines: ??

___Currently___
48. Eating: Nothing
49. Drinking: Nothing
50. Online?: Ummm, yeah
51. Listening to: lazyboy- undwear inside the pants the pants
52. Thinking About: if the white sox won
53. Wanting To: not have a hot house
54. Watching: Nothing
55. Wearing: a tshirt and shorts

___Your Future___
56. Want kids? Yeah
57. Want to Get Married?: Yeah

___Which is Better With The Opposite/Same Sex___
58. Cute or Sexy: cute
59. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
60.. Hugs or Kisses: Both
62. Easygoing or serious: Little bit of both
63. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both
64. Fatty or Skinny: Muscular
65. Sensitive or Loud: both
66. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
67. Sweet or Caring: Both
68. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: both

___Have You Ever___
69. Kissed a stranger: yeah
70. Drank Alcohol: Yeah
71. Smoked: cigarettes? no
72. Ran Away From Home: Yeah
73. Broken a Bone: yes
74. Got an X-ray: Yeah
75. Broken Someones Heart: Yeah
76. Broke Up With Someone: Yeah
77. Turned Someone Down: yea
78. Cried When Someone Died: Yeah
79. Cried At School: yea

___Do You Believe In___
80. God: Yeah
81. Miracles: yea
82. Love At First Sight: yea
83. Ghosts: yea
84. Aliens: yea
85. Soul Mates: Yeah
86. Heaven: Yeah
87. Hell: Yeah
88. Kissing on The First Date: yea
89. Horoscopes: yea
___Answer Truthfully___
90. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? Yeah

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Y 0 U
[ .01. ] first name: kristen
[ .02. ] middle name: patricia
[ .03. ] last name: amato
[ .04. ] nickname(s): amato, amatz, amatizzo
[ .05. ] gender: Female
[ .06. ] birthday: 2/26/87
[ .07. ] height: 5'2
[ .08. ] hair color: brown
[ .09. ] eye color: 1 eye brown 1 eye blue ( contacts)
[ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: yea
[ .011. ] do you have braces: No
[ .012. ] is your hair long or short: Long
[ .013. ] where were you born: chicago ridge, il
[ .014. ] current location: oak lawn il
[ .015. ] zodiac sign: pisces
[ .016. ] how many languages do you know: tiny tiny bit of french
[ .017. ] what laungage do you want to learn:
[ .018. ] bad habits: easily attached -never let go
[ .019. ] piercing you have: my ears, carlidge belly button, lip ring
[ .020. ] piercing you want:
[ .021. ] tattoos you have:
[ .022. ] tattoos you want:
[ .023. ] today: Sunday
[ .024. ] today's date: June 19 2005
[ .025. ] the time: 2:18 AM
[ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: Sure

F A M i L Y
[ .027. ] mother's name: Deanne
[ .028. ] father's name: Frank
[ .029. ] brother's name: Rob, Joe
[ .030. ] sister's name:
[ .031. ] favorite aunt: Aunt Denise
[ .032. ] favorite uncle: uncle richie. rip.
[ .033. ] favorite grandparent: grandma. ( my moms mom)
[ .036. ] worst relative: my aunt kim can be really mean.
[ .037. ] best relative: aunt denise, cousins- nicki, michelle, victoria
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: sometimes
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: nicki. ( my cousin)

P E T S
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: Yeah
[ .041. ] what are their names: socko
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: a cat

S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yeah
[ .044. ] did you drop out: graduated
[ .045. ] current gpa: 2.8
[ .046. ] favorite grade: kindergarden, 3rd, 5th, 6th, 9th, 10th, 12th
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 8th, 11th
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: mrs hook, mrs sulek, mrs bibeau, mr clifton, mr denton
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: mrs dickinson
[ .050. ] favorite subject: english, chemistry
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: history
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: Buy lunch
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: i used to play softball
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: student helper for the first 2 years
[ .055. ] are/was were you popular: people like me
[ .056. ] favorite dance: hum. prom
[ .057. ] favorite memory: lunch time always laughing.
[ .058. ] favorite memory you want to have: ... i don tknow
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: just most of 11th grade
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: falling in the jr/ sr lounge -- i tripped on the stairs

F A V 0 R i T E S
[ .061. ] number: 3, 5
[ .062. ] letter: S
[ .063. ] shoes: etnies
[ .064. ] saying(s): WInners never quit and quitters never win
[ .065. ] TV show: boy meets world
[ .066. ] sport: softball
[ .067. ] vegetable: ???
[ .068. ] fruit: peaches
[ .069. ] movie: spiderman, fight club. vanilla sky, butterfly effect
[ .070. ] magazine: ??
[ .071. ] actor:
[ .072. ] actress:
[ .073. ] candy: reeses
[ .074. ] gum: winterfresh
[ .075. ] scent: ralph lauren , tommy hilfiger
[ .076. ] candy bar: kit kat
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: cookie dough
[ .078. ] color: Black blue and green
[ .079. ] season: summer
[ .080. ] holiday: xmas
[ .081. ] band: tbs, the higher, the acadmey is
[ .082. ] singer:
[ .083. ] group:
[ .084. ] rapper: eminem, tupac
[ .085. ] type of music: almost anything
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my cd player
[ .087. ] place to be: the pavilion
[ .089. ] tv channel: .. used to be 48.. abc family.. but the channels just got changed. so i think its 72?
[ .090. ] junk food: chips ahoy w/ candy blasts
[ .091. ] overall food: ribs, honey bbq steak
[ .092. ] store: zumies, pac sun
[ .093. ] hangout: pavilion, dunkin donuts/baskin robins
[ .094. ] fast food: wendys
[ .095. ] restaurant: ihop
[ .096. ] shape: Star
[ .097. ] time of day: Night
[ .098. ] country: france
[ .099. ] state: indiana
[ .100. ] boys name: josh, zack
[ .101. ] girls name: ..........
[ .102. ] mall: orland mall
[ .103. ] video garnier
[ .105. ] board game: Monopoly
[ .106. ] computer game: law and order
[ .107. ] car: eclipse 2002
[ .108. ] music video: mehh. new tbs
[ .109. ] swear word: shit, fuck
[ .110. ] word: procrastination
[ .111. ] month: august
[ .112. ] cartoon character: speed racer
[ .113. ] scary movie: most of them.
[ .114. ] team: white sox
[ .115. ] possession: green bracelet, my red hoodie. candy necklace technically none of those are mine

WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U TH0UGHT 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR..
[ .116. ] eminem: haley
[ .117. ] dog: cute
[ .118. ] hot: cold
[ .119. ] britney spears: kristie
[ .120. ] nsync: justin
[ .121. ] real world: stupid
[ .122. ] orange: pop
[ .123. ] choice: too many
[ .124. ] fuck: stupid people
[ .125. ] bisexual: gay people
[ .126. ] black: spider
[ .127. ] icq: msn
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: my brother
[ .129. ] linkin park: papercut
[ .130. ] jack: inthebox328
[ .131. ] rainbow: colors
[ .133. ] cucumber: good
[ .134. ] shark: water
[ .135. ] lifehouse: prom
[ .136. ] bat: ball
[ .137. ] leather: pants
[ .138. ] whip: cream
[ .139. ] america: free
[ .140. ] water: polo
[ .141. ] volcano: explode

[ .142. ] rock or rap: both
[ .143. ] rock or pop: rock
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: both
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: neither
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park
[ .153. ] tool or korn: neither
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: both
[ .155. ] hot or cold: hot
[ .156. ] winter or summer: summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: Fall
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: neither?
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: neither
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: Neither
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: mtv
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: Neither
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: gilmore grisl
[ .165. ] football or basketball: both
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: summer
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: skateboarding
[ .169. ] black or white: both
[ .170. ] orange or red: Red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: Green
[ .172. ] purple or pink: purple
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: neither
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: pac sun
[ .175. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: Cell phone
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: Pen
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlies angels
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: dino
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: Neither
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: neither
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: both?
[ .184. ] prep or punk: hum both
[ .185. ] slut or whore: neither

P R i V A T E L i F E
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: No
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: Yeah
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: yea
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: Yeah
[ .190. ] how many people have you liked: i duno alot
[ .191. ] who was your first crush: justin
[ .192. ] how many hearts have you broken: 1
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: 2
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: "You know, when it works, love is pretty amazing. It's not overrated. There's a reason for all those songs"
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: you know
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: no
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yea
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: personality mainly
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: Yeah
[ .202. ] are you still friends: Yeah
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: no
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: No
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: No
[ .206. ] how about a little x: No
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: No
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: bad
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: sure. and bacardi, and mikes
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: yea
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: Liquor
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke:
[ .213. ] have you ever drank Hypnotiq: No
[ .214. ] if yes, when was the last time you got some: Didn't drink any

W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER..
[ .215. ] bungee jump: yea
[ .216. ] sky dive: yea
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yea
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yea
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: yea
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: no
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: No
[ .223. ] cross-dress: No
[ .224. ] lie to the police: yea
[ .225. ] run from the police: yea
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: Yeah
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: no
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: no
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: No
[ .230. ] streak: No

Y 0 U R F R I E N D S
[ .231. ] best friends: jackie, kristie
[ .232. ] known longest: jackie puschkar
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: most of them
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: katie luckett, meghan d., j. manning
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: a large lump some
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: meh....
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: jz. laura.
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': yeah
[ .239. ] craziest: erin
[ .240. ] loudest: none of them are all too loud
[ .241. ] shyest: colleen
[ .242. ] best hair: jz
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: most of them.
[ .244. ] best eyes: i duno.
[ .243. ] best body: id uno.
[ .246. ] most athletic: proally me. haha
[ .247. ] sex symbol: wat?
[ .248. ] hot tempered: none of them really
[ .249. ] most impatient: .. umm no one
[ .250. ] shortest: me
[ .251. ] tallest: j. manning
[ .252. ] talented: all of them.
[ .253. ] best singer: ricky.( i like his voice)
[ .254. ] skinniest: all of them
[ .255. ] nicest: All of them
[ .256. ] best personality: All
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: no one

HAVE Y0U EVER:
[ .258. ] flashed someone: no
[ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: yea
[ .260. ] been to michigan: yea
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvie: No
[ .263. ] skateboarded: Yeah
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: no
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yea
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: No
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: Yeah
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: Yeah
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: Yeah
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: no
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: no
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: Yeah
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: Yeah
[ .275. ] been to a concert: Yeah
[ .276. ] been to another country: yea
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: Yeah
[ .278. ] got pulled over: yea
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: Yeah
[ .280. ] broke a law: yea
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: No
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: no
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: Yeah
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: dont really feel liek thinking that much into it right now
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: i dont think so
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: No

W H A T D I D Y 0 U D 0
[ .297. ] last birthday: went to wisconsin and got drunk ina hotel in racine. and lost my fav. brown shoes
[ .298. ] yesterday: worked and hung out w/ dave, laura and teresa
[ .299. ] last weekend: dont remember
[ .300. ] christmas: grandmas
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: nothing
[ .302. ] new year's: i was at dan k.'s house
[ .303. ] halloween: who knows
[ .304. ] easter: nothin
[ .305. ] valentine's day: got my rejection letter from Ohio State and worked after school from 3- 12 at dominos

T H E L A S T
[ .306. ] thing you ate: fries
[ .307. ] thing you drank: dr. pepper
[ .308. ] thing you wore: white polo, jeans, texas long horn hat
[ .309. ] place you went: ashleys
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: lip ring
[ .311. ] person you saw: turek
[ .312. ] person you kissed:
[ .313. ] person you fxcked:
[ .314. ] person you talked to: jackie
[ .315. ] song you heard: have you forgotten by darryl worley
[ .316. ] what are you eating: Nothing
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: Nothing
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: tshirt, shorts
[ .319. ] any shoes on: No
[ .320. ] hat: None
[ .321. ] listening to: Nothing
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: no
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: No
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: No
[ .325. ] do you like cows: nah
[ .326. ] are you a bxtch: no
[ .327. ] are you artistic: no
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: Yeah
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: not at all
[ .330. ] can you ski: water ski?.. a tiny bit. never ski'ed in snow
[ .331. ] are you british: no
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: no
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: No
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: no
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: Yeah
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': No
[ .337. ] are you straight: yea
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: No
[ .339. ] are you nice: Most part
[ .340. ] are you naughty: no
[ .341. ] are you short: yea
[ .342. ] are you tall: No
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: yea
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: No
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: No
[ .346. ] are you evil: no
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: no
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: No
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: No
[ .350. ] am i annoying you?: No
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: no
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: No
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: ..
[ .354. ] this is over are you happy now hahah: Yeah

yep.

2005-06-20T06:42:39Z

Hey um. so today was pretty fun. baseball at 1pm. but we lost 17-10. i had a few pretty good foul balls almost 2 homeruns. ah well it was a good game

came home and hung out for a while then helped my mom fix our toilet some wax ring broke or somthin i dont know and laura came with me to ACE hardware and then to subway where the girl is a bitch and we watched spiderman. fun times. then came home again and eventually got ready after about 3 more hours of procrastination.

went to thortons and joe asked if i would still install his CD player. and he said i shoudl call him but i told him how my phone broke so he said he was going to give me his number but i agave him mmine instead ( so now i know if he calls he erally does want to hang out) i dont like boys. i hope he isnt getting my hopes up for nothing.. again.

so i work in like 11and a half hours. 1-8pm should be a blast. but ir ealized. that the lady at UPS said that they'd call me back by the end of the next buisness day and they're not open on saturday so they'll call by the end of tomorrow.

i went to kevs grad. party and then me ,laura, jz, jon, and kevin all went to wendys / dunkin donuts. ( as usual) and then we ( minus kevin) went to ash's and bunch of drunk kids. miss those girls tho. specially turek <3
and then jz and laura left and like 20minutes later i left and then jon was still there. and i talked to jz on the phone and realized the world really sucks. but im glad i have my friends

i mean i really am happy, all things considered, i guess i should be and soemtimes im not but i try.

::sing sing sing, sing your song, sing for me::

Summer 05... so deep in love.

2005-06-16T05:22:22Z

Alright maybe im not in love... maybe im not even close. Um i guess im going to start this up again sorry about just leaving one day.. for anyone who reads this.... whatever so far this summer its been about the beach, the pavilion, baseball and softball games, plenty of music, a few parties, and amazing friends.

In august i was supposed to go to Bradley University and then UPS called and said they wanted to give me a job so i was going to go to DePaul so i could just stay around here.. maybe get an apartment? or dorm at Depaul.... UPS said they'd call back in a week to officially hire me... they never called.. i already told DePaul i was coming. I got a speeding ticket on the way to Wisconsin Dells before prom i was going 93 in a 65 . $280.20 .... alot of money for a ticket.. im about 900dollars in debt with my parents but i proally wont pay them back till im 90. im getting a laptop within a week. I got in a huge fight with my best friend, jackie, at the end of the year... i hate myself for it. i'm sure one day i'll bea ble to forgive myself...and just to let you know shes my life. my best friend, my hero.

I cant dorm at DePaul my parents arent able to Finance it and now theres a waiting list. Anyone know anyone who wants to get an apartment??? let me know please. um.. nothing else really happening. this summer will probably be the most amazing one yet.

rocket(laura), 4734 + a hoodie(jz), a texas long horn hat (jim), a bracelet (erin), -- those are my most important things and people in my life right now

you'll never believe this

2005-04-12T18:11:46Z

so.. for some reason.. reading books, myspace, fall out boy, mychemical romance and the academy is can make you forget about all of you problems.... strange it is...

silly journal i bet you were worried... but-i told you i'll be okay

i am okay the more its typed. the more i feel it.

work mcdonalds 3-4:30 work jewel 5-9. call me. leave me messages. text me

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-04-12T12:50:00

2005-04-12T17:55:36Z

IM NOT OKAY
YOU WEAR ME OUT

sometimes its okay to not be okay.... i worked god damn hard this year. it may not seem like i did but if you understood me in the least bit you would know how bad i wanted to giv eup so many times and to get a's and b's is unbelievibly hard for anyone who doesnt want to try at all
and to get it all blown and have to take 4 finals that i dont want to take. i dont even need to take to graduate well thats just ridiculous. journal. i broke down today. but .....

IM OKAY NOW
BUT YOU REALLY NEED TO LISTEN TO ME
BECAUSE I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH
I MEAN THIS, I'M OKAY
(TRUST ME)

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-04-10T23:04:00

2005-04-11T04:07:19Z

dear journal,

football didnt happen. freddie showed up alone, i had higgins show up with larson, reed, and russell was there.... the ended up playing basketball against some arabian guys... no bbq either.. just alot of good times at a park destroying a cart then good times gettin ice cream and more good times laying in the grass at the paviolion..

but the good news is.. i realized wats wrong... like whats been brining me down for 6 years now.... and i realized im disappointed in the world. I know you dont understand what i mean by that, because you're just a journal, but if you'd liek to know i will explain it at a later date.

i love coll. and jayzee 4734

long long time 'go

2005-04-10T18:42:27Z

thats right i havent updated in a while. im super cool like that.. and im not even going to bother explainging wats been going on..... ilove jayzee. alot. my friend not the rapper

and my other friends rock alot too. rovy and manning!. i love u guys party next weekend. this weekend i was watching people race cars all night at doughty road.. cant spell it.. then we'd get chased away by cops and go to the shell gas station and then we'd go to rosebuds after we got chased away by cops and then after that we'd go back to doughty.

im buying a neon blue -under body kit for only 50bucks. that shit runs for like $175 . and the kid im buying it from is going to install it for free n shit. and then this kid alex im buying little neon lights from for only 30bucks. and hes going to wire them into my car and my radar so that shit turns on when i turn my car on and all the wires will be hidden. and hes gonna paint the inside blue. for free my rides gunna be pimp as fuck. and im saving money for the new speakers im gettin all those lights at the end of april soon as i pay shit off

like xsport lol. and still looking for a prom. dress.. u know for the dance thats in 1month and 3days. lol. FUCK lol. um... i guess thats all thats realyl been up. i went to a school play last nite it was really good . and im going to jayzees dance recital next week- im proud of you <3:)

4734 alright im goin to play football and then havin a bbq in my back yard..hopoefully plans work. peace

<3

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-04-09T15:15:00

2005-04-09T20:16:24Z

PURITY: 79% sex, 60% substance, 62% moral [70% total]

Well done! The higher your scores, the more "pure" you are. The lower, the more you've experienced.

This test was about done deeds, so your numbers will never climb. [It's interesting to think they all started at 100%.] But will your purity continue to fall? Will you OUTGROW or will you OUTDO your past experiences? It's up to you.

Advisory:

Don't date anyone if your moral purities differ by more than 30%.
Don't run a business with anyone if your substance purities differ by more than 40%.
Do be friends with someone who has less than 1/2 your sex purity. You'll enjoy their colorful company.

Note: as for the "TOTAL" purity value - that's a weighted combination of your scores, indicating what a typical purity test might say about you.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 32% on substance

You scored higher than 56% on sex

You scored higher than 33% on moral

You scored higher than 46% on TOTAL

Link: The 3-Variable Purity Test written by chriscoyne on OkCupid Free Online Dating

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-03-22T12:55:00

2005-03-22T19:21:33Z

1. Your LiveJournal user name & what it means: xbleedinxheartx.... it sounded cool when i said it?

2. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) how well does your LiveJournal represent who you actually are? probably an 8

3. How much about your life do you post to LJ? 80%

4. Is there anything you refuse to post about? um... stuff like ya know sex. and stuff that really really upsets me

5. On a scale of 1-10 how interesting do you think your own journal is to others? 10 i dont do it for other people i do it for me

6. Has anyone ever joined LJ because of you? yup

7. What proportion of your posts are friends only? like 2%

8. What is your favorite interest on LJ? ummm ... looking at other peoples?

9. How often do you post in communities, and did you ever start your own? never and no

10. How often do you respond to/comment on other people's journals? usually. specially if im in it

11. Do you prefer to write in your journal or read other journals? umm.. reading i love to see what people have to say especially if they're being poetic

12. Have you ever had something mean said to you or been stalked, harassed or got into an argument/flame war on LJ (or did it to someone else)? um. no i dont think so

13. Have you ever banned someone from your journal? no

14. Who are your three favorite LJ friend(s) and why? kristie, jayzee, and thats it. cuz they're my best friends lol or sometimes erins

15. Of all of the people on LJ you know of, who is the most like you? no one

16. Why are you most likely to add someone to your friends list? cuz they seem intersting

17. Do you automatically add friends to your journal if they add you first? yea

18. What is the most likely reason you wouldn't add someone to your friends list? um. not really sure

19. Is your "significant other" on LJ? nah

20. Have you ever wanted to meet someone on LJ? yes

A Rose by any other name would still smell as sweet

1). YOUR PORN STAR NAME - (NAME OF FIRST PET + STREET YOU LIVE ON): Barbie natoma

2). YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME - (GRANDMOTHER'S FIRST NAME + FAVORITE SNACK FOOD): Patricia Doritos

3). YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME - (FIRST WORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT + FAVORITE RESTAURANT): .. on your left what?

4). YOUR FOREIGN NAME - (FAVORITE SPICE GIRL + LAST FOREIGN VACATION SPOT): Sporty Italy

5). YOUR SOCIALITE NAME - (SILLIEST CHILDHOOD NICKNAME + FIRST TOWN WHERE YOU PARTIED): Pickle Chicago Ridge

6). YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME - (FIRST INITIAL + FIRST THREE LETTERS OF YOUR LAST NAME): K Ama

7). YOUR DETECTIVE NAME - (FAVORITE ANIMAL + NAME OF HIGH SCHOOL): Dog Oak Lawn

8). YOUR BARFLY NAME - (LAST SNACK FOOD YOU ATE + YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK): Sundae Bacardi

9). YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME - (MIDDLE NAME + STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED): Patricia Natoma

10). YOUR ROCK STAR NAME - (FAVORITE CANDY + FAVORITE MUSICIAN'S LAST NAME): Snickers Year

11). YOUR "POPULAR" NAME - (FAVORITE CELEBRITY'S FIRST NAME + BEST FRIEND'S STREET NAME): Kirsten Magnolia

12). YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME - (NAME OF [OPPOSITE SEX] FRIEND + CELL PHONE COMPANY YOU USE): Ryan Cingular

Time Started: 1:07pm
Date: March 22,2005

1) First Name Spelled Backwards: netsirk
2) Middle Name Spelled Backwards: aicirtap
3) Last Name Spelled Backwards: otama

4) Your Half-Birthday: august 13..?? lol i dont know how that works
5) What type of milk do you drink?: chocolate
6) What is the most sentimental thing you own?: my monkey and my builda bear
7) Have any imaginary friends?:no
8) When was the last time you brushed your teeth?: this morning
9) Do you listen to Christmas music in July?: yes

10) What is the first thing that comes to mind when I say January?: half way done with school
11) May?: flowers
12) November?: thanksgiving
13) July?: 4th
14) April?: rain
15) February?: birthday
16) October?: leaves
17) August?: school
18) March?: chilly
19) December?: xmas break
20) June?:summer
21) September?: beautiful

21) What color is your blanket?:yellow

22) What was the last movie you bought?: i dont buy movies
23) Last CD you bought?: hidden in plain view
24) What radio station do you listen to?: 103.5 96.3 or 99.5

25) Are you the only child, oldest child, middle child, or youngest child?: middle
26) If you do have brother(s) or sister(s) put them in alphabetical order, including yourself: Joe, Kristen, Rob

27) Do you have anything on your bedroom walls? wallpaper
28 ) How many windows in your home?: i think 10
29) How many pairs of shoes do you own?: 5 or 6

30) What's the weirdest song title you've ever heard of?: gold dust vs state of illinois
31) Whats the worst movie you've ever seen?: birth
32) Whats the worst CD you've ever listened to?: don tknow
33) What US State would you NEVER want to visit?: seattle, washington.. watever lol im bad at staes
34) What country would you NEVER want to visit?: antartica
35) What is your least favorite color?: yellow
36) What is your favorite flavor Fanta (the soda)?: grape

37) Do you have any scars?: yes
38 ) Do you know anybody in the Army, Navy, Marines, or any other group?: yes

39) What color goes good with Blue?: green
40) Green?: blue
41) Grey?: black
42) Orange?: purple
43) Red?: black
44) Yellow?: purple
45) Purple?: black

46) What is your favorite character in 'Harry Potter'?: hermonie
47) 'Lord Of The Rings'?: ??
48 ) 'Grease'?:??
49) Have you ever seen 'Life Is Beautiful'?: no
50) What about 'Monsters Inc.'?:yea
51) Do you like Scooby Doo?: yes

52) Describe your perfect place to live (imaginary or not): no storms, but a little rain. warm
53) Does your back hurt?: no
54) Do you collect anything?: yes
55) Have you ever been to camp?: no
56) Do you have a car? yes
57) If you don't have a car, would you name it? i should think about naming my car
58 ) What is your perfect car?: spyder eclipse

59) What family member are you closest to?: dad
60) What family member do you wish you were closer to?: mehh
61) Do you consider pets as family?: yes

62) Do you look at a calander daily?: yes
63) What is your least favorite holiday?: um. i dont know
64) Do you like getting air-mail?: yes
65) Would you ever go on a cruise?: yes
66) How many phones do you have in your home?: 2
67) Do you own or wear a watch?: no
68 ) Do you wear any jewelry? If so what do you wear?: earings lip ring

69) Where do you wish you were right now?: playiong basketball
70) With whom?: eurika lol
71) Doing what?: playing basketball
72) Have you ever had a sepia photo taken of you?: no??
73) What is your least favorite WB movie?: i dont nkow
74) Do you own any hats? Is yes, what kinds?: regular kind
75) Do you own anything that is older then you?: nop
76) How many hours of sleep did you get last night?: 6
78) Have you ever won a ribbon?: yes
79) Do you save old birthday/christmas/whatever cards given to you?:yes

81) Ever been to Disneyland?: yes
82) Ever been to Universal Studios?: no
83) Ever seen the cockpit of an airplane?: no
84) Ever made a movie?:no
85) Geometry or Algebra?: geometry
86) Poems or Short Stories?: poems
87) AIM or MSN?: aim
88 ) MSN or Yahoo?: yahoo
89) AIM or Yahoo?:aim
90) Windows or MAC?: windows

91) What is your least favorite number?: 9
92) What was the last thing you said?: can i close the blinds
93) What are you sitting on?: chair

94) Have you been outside today?: yes
95) What have you done today?: this and been in school

96) Do you like apple or orange juice?: apple
97) Do you like cats or dogs more?: both
98) What is your most favorite reptile?: um. frogs?
99) Would you rather fish or hunt?: fish
100) Are you sleepy?: no

Time Ended: 1:16pm
Date: march 22, 2005.. still lol

Rules its bolding
add 5 more things about yourself
if you want to see if we can get this up to 1000 questions
Underline yours

01. I know all the words to 'I'm a barbie girl.'
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a virgo.
07. I love beer.
08. I can't live without lip gloss.
09. I can't live without music.
10. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.
11. I spend money I don't have.
12. I'll be in college forever.
13. I've seen Jason Mraz.
14. I get annoyed easily.
15. I eventually want kids.
16. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
17. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
18. I am a person.
19. I start film school in February.
20. I love the rain.
21. I love taking pictures.
22. I LUV girls who are fake.
23. I can be mean when I want to.
24. My dreams are bizarre.
25. One of my close friends is gay.
26. I have way too many purses.
27. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
28. I usually dress how I feel that day.
29. I love 'Sex and the City'.
30. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
31. I hate when people are late. Or too damn early.
32. I procrastinate.
33. I love winter.
34. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
35. I love to sleep.
36. I wish I were smarter.
37. I'm afraid of flying.
38. I love singing.
39. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
40. I love my hair.
41. I never fight with my parents.
42. I love the beach.
43. I have never had the chicken pox.
44. I'm excited for the future.
45. I can't control my emotions.
46. I can't wait till New Year's
47. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
48. I love my friends.
49. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
50. I can be very insecure sometimes.
51. I have never broken a bone.
52. I hate racist people.
53. I hate my computer.
54. I love guys that play the guitar.
55. I state the obvious.
56. I'm a happy person.
57. I love to dance.
59. I hate cleaning my room.
60. I tend to get jealous easily.
61. I love cute underwear.
62. I love John Mayer.
63. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
64. I want to go to Greece.
65. I don't like to study for tests.
66. I love God.
67. I am too forgiving.
68. I have a horrible sense of direction.
69. I love(d) high school.
70. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
71. I'm a daddy's girl.
72. I love kisses on the forehead.
73. I love the color pink.
74. I love to sew.
75. I have blue eyes.
76. I love the Olsen Twins.
77. I played soccer for 10 years.
78. I become stressed easily.
79. I HATE liars.
80. I like comfy sweatpants.
81. Paul Walker is a fag.
82. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
83. I love my family.
84. I hate needles.
85. I am a perfectionist.
86. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
87. I am still a virgin.
88. I would love to have my own fashion line.
89. I can be quite selfish.
90. I still act like a little kid sometimes.
91. I despise dishonesty.
92. I love pictures.
93. I love music.
94. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
95. I love getting stuff in the mail.
96. I have problems letting go of people.
97. I hate the feeling of being lonely.
99. I hate the fact that i wear size 5 jeans
100. I've never watched "Sex and the City" and I don't really care if I do.
101. I really don't want to add five things to this list.
102. So I won't.
103. Harry Potter is cool!
104. I am patient, to a point.
105. I like bunnies.
106. I often don't think before I speak and then regret it.
107. I love summer.
108. I miss the friends that I haven't seen for a while.
109. I like the feeling of sneezing.
110. The thought of special brownies make me giggle.
111. Sometimes i actually enjoy school but other times i just want it all to stop.
112. I work(ed) at a convenience store and strongly dislike it.
113. I love video games.
114. i'm an insomniac
115. i like lord of the rings...
116. im reading da vinci code
117. and..........my name is JC
118. i want thirteen kids
119. i get attached easily
120. but i still manage to have commitment problem
121. im an azn kid
122. I like to watch movies that make me cry.
123. I love playing in the rain.
124. Ive watched a porn.
125. Ive skinny dipped multiple times
126. People that shove religion down my throat bother me.
127. i miss my home of nine years
128. i love dancing to britney spears
129. I like it doggie style.
130. i need a life!
131. i love roller coasters.
132. i am scared of heights
133. My nails are painted pink
134. I love gum.
135. I think Johnny Knoxville is sexy!
136. I am in LOVE with Johnny Depp.
137. I'm a hopeless romantic.
138. I'm a pimp
139. I dont think before I speak
140. I get into trouble at least 3 times a week for stupid shit.
141. I have never gotten straight A's
142. I have a tanning bed in my house.
143. Olives are my favorite!
144. Kittens make me happy.
145. I am in love with AFI.
146. I am a supervisor at an amusement park.
147. I have a boyfriend whom I can trust.
148. I love the fact that my birthday is in August because it is not near any major holidays.
149. I have more than one favorite color
150. The end of 'Big Fish' makes me cry.
151. I am gay.
152. I have done drugs other than weed.
153. I have never cheated on anybody.
154. I hate chocolate.
155. I have an obsession with wanting to lose weight.
156. Im in love.
157. Jenni Kay Wolfgram is my best friend
158. I like cream cheese and salami
157. I love chocolate milk
158. I have spit-o-phobeia(fear of spit).
159. I cried for days when my dog died.
160. I am learning how to play lacrosse.
161. DDR rocks.
162. My middle name is Marie. ( confirmation name.. but its still in the middle between my first and last name)
163. I work at Publix.
164. I like a certain someone.
165. Somehow, the people I trust always let me down.
166. Sometimes, I want to move away, right away, and never look or come back.
167. I Love the Ashlee Simpson Show
168. I hate people that use others.
169. I freaking Love Yellowcard
170. I am in love with Kurt Cobain and I wish he never died.
171. I surf and skate.
172. I love Drew. He's a perfect 10.
173. I'm not ashamed to admit that I love the Backstreet Boys.
174. I have my belly button pierced.
175. I own a cowboy hat.
176. I've seen my favorite band more than a few times in concert
177. I shop at both Hot Topic & Hollister
178. I think Mexican guys are gorgeous.
179. I get cold really easily.
180. I write poetry.
181. I love reading.
182. I have a white noise machine that I can't sleep without
183. I'm majoring in Biology, and eventually will have a PhD.
184. I have a litter box in my closet
185. I was a cheerleader
186. I am a Scorpio
187.I live in the state of NY
188. I have more then Five piercings
189. I'm a lesbian
190. I'm a Taurus
191. I like making out in public
192. I go to a gay youth group
193. I wish i could believe in my friends
194. I'm scared to die
195. I am going away to college
196. Im learning how to skateboard
197. I've gotten stitches before

X

2005-03-22T18:54:51Z

SO me n xtina signed up for xsport on sunday. then went otu to eat at pizza hut and then worked out. played some ball n shiat. and then yesterday i had work 3-7:15 ish. and then played basketball. went tanning, and went running at xsport. later im going to target with my mom then showing her xsport Thennn later going tanning again. um and hanging out with lauren.

nothing else really new.. i have 3 A's 2 B's and 1 lousy C.. but the C is in psych and the only reason is because our article reviews are worth 100points and i didnt do the last one so iwent from a 85 to a 70something. ah well. im sssso entirely sick of school

but the good news is.. only about 30 days of school left and spring break starts this friday i start working at jewel tomrorow. im getting $7.60 an hour.. wrapping meat. come visit me yeah>?

this is how it feels to know everyones got something they're running out of....
the junior varsity^^

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-03-18T13:01:00

2005-03-18T19:17:59Z

Bold all things you have done, italicize things you would like to do in a lifetime.

1. Had sex

2. Have kissed a member of the opposite sex

3. Have kissed a member of the same sex (not in a sexual way?)

4. Crashed a friend's car

5. Have been to Japan

6. Rode in a taxi

7. Have been in love

10. Shoplifted

11. Have been fired

12. Have cut myself on purpose

13. Have been in a fist fight

14. Had a 3-some

15. Snuck out of my parent's house

16. Have been tied up

18. Have been arrested ( i wouldnt mind).. gotta be a rebel

19. Made out with a stranger

20. Stolen something from my job

21. Celebrated New Year's in Times Square

22. Gone on a blind date

23. Had a crush on a teacher

24. Celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans

25. Been to Europe .. does france count?

26. Skipped school ( i know i will in college)

27. Slept with a co-worker

28. Have thrown up in a bar

29. Have purposely set myself on fire

30. I have eaten sushi

31. Been snowboarding

32. Been skiing ( water ski-ing)

33. Have made a snow angel

34. Have been happy with myself

35. Have met a movie star

36. Had sex in a pool

37. Went to a prom

37. Bungee jumped

38. Have been to a concert

39. Have dated someone for over a year

40. Sold naked pictures of myself

41. Have been in a car accident

42. Have slept in the nude

43. Eaten cheesecake

44. Had jury duty

45. Hated someone without knowing them

46. Have been to Maine

47. Shot a real gun

48. I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles

49. I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them

50. Done ecstasy

51. Gotton my ass kicked

52. Caught smoking

53. Tipped a cow

54. Got in a verbal fight with a teacher

55. Cheated on someone

56. Lied one time in this survey

57. Lied more then once in this survey

58. Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone

59. Partied every weekend for the last month

60. Sniffed markers to get high

61. Slept for more than 15 hours at a time ( i got to 13)

62. Petted a live tiger

63. Kissed someone in the snow

64. Found a four leaf clover

65. Gave your parents the finger behind a closed door and behind their backs

66. Gotten drunk in Germany

67. Cried in public

68. Cried in public in the last 5 days

69. Been hit on by a member of the same sex

71. Have unknowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship

72. Have knowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship

75. Saved a friend from a bad situation

76. Went to a baseball game

77. Went to a football game

78. Went to a basketball game

79. Spent a weekend's at a friends

80. Sucked my thumb

81 Purposefully failed a grade

82. Got picked on in school

83. Dressed like the popular kids

84. Joined the military

85. Been to the beach

86. Had a TY Beanie collection

87. Had a blonde moment

90. Gotten along with a step-parent

91. Gotten a piercing

92. Told a friend you didn't like their boyfriend/girlfriend

93. Confronted your parents

94. And lived to see the next day

95. Liked Barney

96. Liked Teletubbies

97. Bought a friend a gift

98. And still haven't sent it yet

99. Is innocent

100. Is perverted

101. Bought something but never used it

102. Held a tarantula

103. Taken a candlelit bath with someone

104. Said "I love you" and meant it

105. Hugged a tree

106. Done a striptease

107. Learned Latin

108. Visited Paris

109. Watched a lightning storm at sea

110. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise

111. Seen the Northern Lights

112. Gone to a huge sports game

113. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa

114. Grown and eaten your own vegetables

115. Touched an iceberg

116. Slept under the stars

117. Changed a baby's diaper

118. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon

119. Watched a meteor shower

120. Gotten drunk on champagne

121. Given more than you can afford to charity

122. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope

123. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment

124. Had a food fight

125. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier

126. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can

127. Held a lamb

128. Enacted a favorite fantasy

129. Taken a midnight skinny dip

130. Taken an ice cold bath

131. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar.

132. Ridden a roller coaster

133. Seen a shooting star

134. Hit a home run

135. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days

136. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking

137. Adopted an accent for an entire day

138.Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

139. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment

139. Had two hard drives for your computer

140. Visited all 50 states

141. Loved your job for all accounts

143. Had enough money to be truly satisfied

144. Have amazing friends

145. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country

146. Watched wild whales

147. Stolen a sign OMG so many! lol

148. Backpacked in Europe

149. Taken a road-trip

150. Rock climbing </i>

151. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice

152. Midnight walk on the beach

153. Sky diving

154. Visited Ireland

155. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love

156. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them

157. Benchpressed your own weight

158. Milked a cow

159. Alphabetized your records

160. Pretended to be a superhero

161. Sung karaoke

162. Lounged around in bed all day

163. Posed nude in front of strangers

164. Scuba diving

165. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye

166. Kissed in the rain

167. Played in the mud

168. Played in the rain

169. Gone to a drive-in theater

170. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it

171. Visited the Great Wall of China

172. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog

173. Dropped Windows in favor of something better

174. Started a business

175. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken

176. Toured ancient sites

177. Taken a martial arts class

178. Swordfought for the honor of a woman

179. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight

180. Gotten married

181. Been in a movie

182. Crashed a party

183. Loved someone you shouldn't have

184. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy

185. Gotten divorced

186. Had sex at the office/workplace

187. Gone without food for 5 days

188. Made cookies from scratch

189. Won first prize in a costume contest

190. Ridden a gondola in Venice

191. Gotten a tattoo

192. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on

193. Rafted the Snake River

194. Been on television news programs as an "expert"

195. Got flowers for no reason

196. Got so drunk you don't remember anything

197. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug

198. Performed on stage

199. Been to Las Vegas

200. Recorded music

201. Eaten alligator

202. Had a one-night stand

203. Gone to Thailand

204. Seen Siouxsie live

205. Bought a house

206. Been in a combat zone

207. Buried one/both of your parents

208. Spoken more than one language fluently

209. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone

210. Bounced a check

211. Performed in Rocky Horror

212. Read - and understood - your credit report

213. Raised children

214. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy

215. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour

216. Created and named your own constellation of stars

217. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country

218. Found out something significant that your ancestors did

219a. Called or written a former president

219b. Had them write back

220. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over

221. ... more than once?

222. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge

223. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking

224. Had an abortion or your female partner did

225. Had plastic surgery

225. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived

226. Wrote articles for a large publication

227. Lost over 100 pounds

228. Petted a stingray

229. Broken someone's heart

230. Helped an animal give birth

231. Been fired or laid off from a job

232. Won money on a TV game show

233. Broken a bone

234. Killed a human being

235. Gone on an African photo safari

236. Ridden a motorcycle

237. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph

238. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced (belly)

239. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild

240. Ridden a horse

241. Had major surgery

242. Had sex on a moving train

243. Had a snake as a pet

244. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon

245a. Slept through an entire europe flight

245b. Slept through an entire asian flight

246. Had your picture in the newspaper

247. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime

248. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about

249. Gotten someone fired for their actions

250. Gone back to school

251. Parasailed

252. Changed your name

253. Petted a cockroach

254. Eaten fried green tomatoes

255. Read The Iliad WHAT?

256. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read

257. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them

258. ... and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you

259. Taught yourself art from scratch

260. Killed and prepared an animal for eating

261. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt

262. Skipped all your school reunions

263. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language

264. Been elected to public office

265. Written your own computer language

266. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream

267. Had to put someone you love into hospice care

268. Built your own PC from parts

269. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you

270. Had a booth at a street fair

271. Dyed your hair

272. Been a DJ

273. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal

274. Written your own role playing game

275. Had sex in almost all the rooms but one in your house

xbleedinxheartx @ 2005-03-17T13:17:00

2005-03-17T19:21:37Z

10 REALLY RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME
10.1 i dislocated my left knee in 5th grade
10.2 i love taking huge risks
10.3 i havent been to church in a while but i had my confirmation and communion
10.4 im the biggest tom boy u'll ever meet
10.5 i love finding lost dogs even though inever get to find them
10.6 when i was 3 years old on christmas i was in the hospital with really bad nemonia.. ( cant spell) i almost died
10.7 I got my tonsils taken out in 2nd grade
10.8 my first job was white hen then good old mcdonalds, then potbellys then back to mcdonalds then dominos and now im back at mcdonalds. and im also gettin a 2nd job of jewel
10.9 over the summer it hurt when i would chew things that were really chewy and my mom said she couldnt see my wisdom teeth so it was those and then a few months ago i went to the dentist told her about that story, she took xrays and decided my teeth needed to come out... ever since then whenever people tlak about pulling teeth i cringe.. worst pain in my life --I have no wisdom teeth left
10.10 i have a talented dad
9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
9.1 Like me for me
9.2 Like my cat
9.3 Like music.
9.4 Have a sense of humor
9.5 Be honest
9.6 Be yourself
9.7 Be able to talk to me about anything
9.8 Try to ignore my sarcasm
9.9 Dont be over possessive and jealous

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
8.1 carry: a wallet
8.2 carry: a cell phone
8.3 carry: car keys
8.4 carry: a palm pilot
8.5 wear: my lip ring
8.6 wear: socks
8.7 wear: t shirt
8.8 wear: pants

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
7.1 death penalty
7.2 abortion
7.3 people who lie
7.4 arabians who go to my school and stand in the middle of the hallway
7.5 the 9 minute ( LITERALLY) walk from my car ( in the student parking lot)to school
7.6 people who smell bad
7.7 bad storms

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED OR INTEND TO
6.1 visited: ohio
6.2 visited: Paris/Italy
6.3 visited: Florida
6.4 intend to: England
6.5 intend to: California
6.6 intend to: Cancun

5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
5.1 be a successful person with a nice house and maybe a few kids
5.2 go to the top of the eiffel tower ( only got half way up)
5.3 Fall in love with someone and have it last a r eal long time
5.4 change myself for the better
5.5 own a spyder eclipse

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
4.1 spiders
4.2 dieing
4.3 college
4.4 Being unsuccessful

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
3.1 shower
3.2 sleep
3.3 sing

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
2.1 Procrastinate.
2.2 break any bones before prom

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
1.1 kristyn turek cuz i havent seen her in a while

01. favorite color: blue
02. favorite drink: dr pepper
03. favorite computer accessory: speakers
04. favorite cookie: chocolate chip
05. favorite author: .. the lady who writes harry potter i forget her name
06. favorite nsync member: lance
07. favorite way of getting caffeinated: cherry coke
08. favorite chipmunk: dont have one
09. favorite ice cream: chocolate chip cookie dough.
10. favorite lover: kristen P.!!!!! <3:) lollll
11. do you believe in love at first sight: Yes
12. do you wash your hands after you go to the bathroom: Yes
13. do you put empty cartons back in the fridge: nope
14. do you do things you know you shouldn't: yes
15. do you take responsibility: most of the time
16. do you have someone else's underwear: No
17. do you associate with people you don't even like: most of the time no
18. do you have any psychological disorders: not that i know of
19. do you drink diet soda: if i have to
20. do you kiss on the first date: maybe
21. have you masturbated in front of someone not your lover: no
22. have you broken the law: drinking under age, no seatbelt( Click it or ticket), i went 110mph on the highway.. hmm yep quite a few
23. have you had one too many to drink: yes
24. have you backed into something: no
25. have you graduated high school: not yet. june 5th
26. have you bitten someone until they bled: ... no
27. have you ever stolen a street sign: yes!!! lol.. 3
28. have you ever been kissed: yes
29. have you ever been in a food fight: no
30. have you ever sucked helium: yes
31. what are you not doing: going to the village hall like my mom asked

31. what are you talking about: lauren going grocery shopping with her mom

32. what are you wearing: my softball spartan long sleep shirt and my hurley shirt over that and a pair of sweatpants
33. what are you craving: some food becuase.. i fell asleep at 9pm last nite.. earliest i've fallen asleep... i think all year .. andi woke up at 9:45. so im a little hungry
34. what are you lusting: oh... yep., nothin
35. what are you lacking: food
36. what are you going to do after this: eat and villgae hall
37. what are you dependent on: my friends
38. what are you hoping: that one day fortune cookies will come true
39. what are you reading: Survey questions
40. what are you listening to: my washer machine
41. last movie you saw: no idea i forget
42. last person you touched: uhh... jackie zink
43. last person you yelled at: my mom
44. last time you got pissed: last night when my cell phone rang 7( literally) times after i fell asleep
45. last person you told you loved: jayzee
46. last thing you drank: ... watever i drank last nite
47. last year, what were you for Halloween: i was pretending to be a girl in the x-games for bmx
48. last year, you were: a junior in high school
49. last time you were on the phone: last night
50. last song you heard: hmm no idea
51. do you want to get married / divorce: ... possibbly married
52. do you want to have children/ names?: dont want to think about this
53. do you want to tell certain people off: yes and i usually do.
55. do you want to be somewhere else: most of the time
56. do you want to be someone else: yes... but somone i make up .. not a real person
57. do you want to be famous: maybe
58. do you want to go for a walk: sometimes
59. do you want to hug anyone: not really
60. do you want to make a difference: without a doubt
61. how do you feel about PDA: do wat u want
62. how do you feel about the other PDA: wat the hell is the other one?
63. how do you feel about alternative lifestyles: do what ya want
64. how do you feel about president bush: do not like him very much
65. how do you feel about birth control: do what you gotta
66. How do you feel about abusive relationships: get outta there
67. How do you feel about the Internet: im addicted
68. how do you feel about your family: ... i refuse to discuss this
69. how do you feel about your friends: helpful. very.
70. how do you feel about polygamy: if i knew wat it was. i'd probably hate it
71. do you like jelly beans: no
72. do you like it when it rains: sometiems.. only if the sun is out while its raining
73. do you like to drive: yes
74. do you like to eat out: sure
75. do you like being home: rarely
76. do you like the people (or animals) you live with: sometimes.
77. do you like emo: sure
78. do you like Microsoft: its okay
79. do you like your name: yes. probably becuase veryone calls me by my last name.. but if i was called by my first name probably not because i peronslly know 7 other kristens ... and then the hundreds of others in the world
80. do you like the person you ganked this from: dont know her
81. worst musical artist: not sure
82. worst feeling in the world: dont really know
83. worst color combination: pink and baby blue
84. worst texture: Not sure.
85. worst taste to burp: acid
86. worst thing about people: im not sure. many
87. worst thing about outer space: not knowing wat else is out there/ who else is out there
88. worst element on the periodic table: im not sure...
89. worst disease / infection to get: chicken pox
90. worst position to sleep in: standing on your head
91. you are: smart

1.) How old are you in dog years? 126? something liek that i think

2.) If you had a personal chef, what would you order them to make for you right now? that peanut butter and jelly grilled sandwhich that jill makes

3.) If you were a Crayola Crayon, what color would you be? some sort of sweet ass green

4.) Do you kiss on the first date? depends

5.) What's your favorite TV channel? nick at nite or abc family

6.) Something you wish you were good at? singing

7.) What is on your feet right now? socks

8.) At the grocery store, do you go for paper or plastic? plastic

9.) How many caffeinated beverages do you consume in a day? too much

10.) What color are your eyes? brown. with blue contacts

11.) Do you walk around naked in the locker room or are you the type to change in the bathroom stall? i change at my locker but i dont get naked

12.) What was your favorite TV show when you were a kid? are u afraid of the dark, salute your shorts, pete and pete, clarissa explains it all

13.) Do you have a job? yes 2

14.) How old do you think you'll be when you get married? im not sure

15.) Do you fart in front of your friends? usually not

16.) Do you make your bed or leave it messy? ... i never make it

17.) Are you really busy or do you have a lot of free time? super busy

18.) What kind of car do you drive? ford 2004 white ranger

19.) How do you usually do your hair? bun, straight, ( naturally curly)... who knows i do it all different ways.

20.) Have you ever been pooped on by a bird? yes at a softball game before

21.) Are you a technology junkie or do you like the old way of doing things? technology junkie

22.) What brand of underwear do you usually have on? um.. wh ichever is most colorful

23.) Who do you live with? mom dad and brother and cat

24.) Are you a coffee drinker? No.

25.) What book are you currently reading? a crack in the line

26.) What kind of toothpaste is in your medicine cabinet? Colgate whitening toothpaste.

27.) What is your favorite kind of cereal? rice krispies w/ sugar.

28.) What's your earliest memory? i dont have a specific one but i remmeber always playing baseball at the park by my old apartment

29.) When I say the word "marriage" what's the first thing that comes to your mind? ( who cares)

SURVEY TIME!!!!!!

2005-03-16T19:42:49Z

A - Age you got your first kiss: 13
B - Band listening to right now: early november
C - Crush: none
D- Dad's name: frank
E - Easiest person to talk to: kristie
F - Favorite band at the moment? psh.. alot.... um tbs, or hipv
G - gummy worms or gummy bears?: worms
H - Hometown: chicago ridge, IL
I - Instruments: that i like?- drums or bass.. that i play?- none:-\ not quite that hand eye coordinated
J- Joints smoked: meh none
K- kids : none
L - Longest car ride ever: 5hours.. ohio. w/ sammy!
M - Mom's name: Deanne
N - Nicknames: amato, amatz, toe, kris
O - One wish: to be a little kid again
P - Phobia[s]: spiders, and the dark
Q - Quote: "People up north just dont get it" .. lol jen north knows wat im talkin bout
R - Reason to smile: my friends
S - Song you sang last: sunday drive by early november
T - Time you woke up: 9:30
U - Unknown fact about me: i love my hair
V - Vegetable you hate: hmm most. asparagus. is that a vegetable?
W - Worst habit(s): procrastinating
X - X-rays you've had: teeth, knee, elbow
Y - Yummy food: peaches
Z - Zodiac sign: pisces+

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Nervous Habits?: bitting nails, leg shaking .

Are you double jointed?: noope

Can you do weird things with tongue?: not at all

Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: just the left one

Can you blow spit bubbles?: yeah lol

Can you cross your eyes?: yes and one at a time

Tattoos?: none

Piercings and where?: yes 3 in the left 2 in the right belly and lip

Do you make your bed daily?: more like do i make it yearly? - yes

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU --
Took a shower?: this morning.. well like 1am

Cried?: don tknow

Talked on the phone?: about 25minutes ago i had to call my boss in work program

Read a book?: currently reading" A crack in the line" its very good

Punched Someone?: last nite

Which shoe goes on first?: um.. either

Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: of course

On average, how much money do you carry with you: if i have money.. probably 10-20dollars.

What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: lip ring belly ring and 2 cartilage earings in my left ear

Favorite Piece of Clothing: hurley brown zip up or jeans that have a huge hole in them

Pajamas: just shorts n tshirt

Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: um i dont really eat spaghetti

Have you ever eaten Spam?: nope

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough

How many cereals in your cabinet?: cinnimon cheerios, cocoa p uffs rice krispies, golden grahms and another one i forget tho

What's your favorite beverage?: hmm red bull

What's your favorite restaurant?: um dont really have one

Do you cook?: nope.

How long does your shower last?: 10-15 minutes

Hair drying method: towel then moose and hair spray and then blow dryer

Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: blonde, purple red( only highlights). yep i've done it all

Do you paint your nails?: rarely

Do you swear?: way too much

Do you ever spit?: if i have eto

FAVORITE --

Animal: dogs n cats and turtles and monkeys

Food: no specific kind

Month: juune cuz its the begining of spring break

Day: hm wednesdays

Cartoon: rocket power

Shoe Brand: etnies!!!!

Subject in school: english or psych.

Color: Blue and green

Sport: softball basketball hockey

Tv show: roseanne and boy meets world

Thing to do in Spring: go driving around with my windows wide open

Thing To Do In The Summer: swim, go to the dunes, and have bonfires at night time

Thing To Do In Autumn: more bonfires look at our schedules to see what classes we have together.

Thing To Do In The Winter: snowboarding, snowmen, snow forts

Game: freeze tag, tv tag, block chase

Person you talk most on the phone with: not one person really

Ever taken a cab?: yep

Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: if im on my way to meet a cute boy

What color is your bedroom?: blue and yellow

Do you use an alarm clock?: indeed i do

Window seat or aisle?: hmm window i like watching things pass by

What's your sleeping position? stomach or back

Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: yep

Do you snore?: i do when im sick

Do you sleepwalk?: Nope.

Do you talk in your sleep?: not tha ti know of

Do you sleep with a stuffed animals?: yes

Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: tv usually

Tonite( thursday) i have work 3-7:30 then a wake then bowling. im gunna kick jenyns ass
i crack concrete when i fall for you <-----ocotber fall :)@!! good show last nite

i found a comunity for surveys mUaahahahah:)

2005-03-15T19:20:47Z

I see: a cloudy sky with sun rays peeking through
I need: to do somet hing productive today
I find: lottery tickets to be addicting
I want: money
I have: friends that mean the world to me
I wish: the future wasnt so scary
I love: my life
I hate: spiders
I miss: being a little kid
I fear: college
I feel: worried
I hear: early november
I smell: the air
I crave: a fun day
I search: for a boy friend
I wonder: if i will finish this by the end of the period
I regret: may 26th , 2004

When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: few minutes ago
Laughed?: like 30 seconds ago
Cried?: dont know
Bought something?: today
Danced?: this morning
Were sarcastic?: today
Kissed someone?: no idea??
Talked to an ex?: um a long time ago ( i guess thats pretty stupid)
Watched your favorite movie?: hmm maybe a few weeks ago
Had a nightmare?: about a week ago

A Last time for everything ...

Last book you read: inm currently reading "A crack in the line"
Last movie you saw: i dont actaully know i've seen a lot lately
Last song you heard: sunday drive by the early november
Last thing you had to drink: wwild cherry pepsi
Last time you showered: this morning
Last thing you ate: a pretzel

Do You ...

Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Have sex?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes
Live in the moment?: yes
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: no
Play an instrument?: no
Believe there is life on other planets?: yes
Remember your first love?: yep
Still love him/her?: no...... ( can you believe it?)
Read the newspaper?: yes
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yea
Believe in miracles?: without a doubt
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
Consider love a mistake?: no
Like the taste of alcohol?: yea
Have a favorite candy?: i like most candy
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: no
Believe in God?: yes
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: sometimes
Have any secrets?: yes
Have any pets: yes
Do well in school?: yea
Go to or plan to go to college?: bradley or depaul
Have a major?: psych or pre-law
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: yea
Wear hats?: sometimes
Have any piercings?: ears, belly button and lip
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself?: no
Have an obsession?: no
Have a secret crush?: no
Do they know yet?:
Collect anything?: rocks from lakes and the ocean
Have a best friend?: of course
Wish on stars?: yes
Like your handwriting?: noo ! lol its so bad
Have any bad habits?: yeah
Care about looks?: yea somewhat
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: dont really matter
Friends and other people?: no. its all inside
Believe in witches?: no
Believe in Satan?: yes
Believe in ghosts?: yes